Thursday, April 26, 2007
you know i have never felt so screwed before.yes, thats the word, screwed.
everything is so not going right
and i'm feeling rather empty.
maybe because i have been not doing my quiet time and all for a really long time.
thats because i'm so tired. and there was syf
but those excuses are never good enough.
the only good one would probably be being in a coma
haha
yeah, and i'm not pmsing. which is all the more annoying.
my studies are like crap, yup though some people might say compare with me blabla.
but i'msorry, apparently i do give myself certain standards. i don't go according to other people's standards.
and this week i figured out that in reality though i'm not aware of it, i'm pretty disappointed in some people.
speak for myself. i figured out that i'm really disappointed in myself too.
really ):
i want to prove myself, to show that i'm capable. but self control is not my forte :/
and thats, terrible.
i know i shouldn't hate myself, but somehow i do.
i've gotta start improving before its too late yeah.
like start from now
oh God, give me strength.
and make me see that life isn't so screwed afterall.
haha. maybe its because i'm feeling so lost for not having handbells on tuesday.
or maybe, i felt as if i had lost the chance to show what i can do. which is why i got upset for the fact that cca was cancelled.
i wish i was back in sec2
i miss sandra they all ):
talking about being disappointed in people, i wonder how in the world do you put your pirorities?
its like, strange.
and you, insult me for all i care, just don't insult my family members will you.
hurrr.
i should continue on my hist assignment now.
and fall into depression
haha kidding :)
THE GREAT DEPRESSION. :P
no, i need to start putting my pirorities right too.
and start spending more time on quiet time.
yes speak for myself yes sigh.
& you know, if you would actually assure me, the world be a happier place?
yes an emo post. no you don't wanna copy and paste it into notepad or whatever:)
CONGRATS TO:
string ensumble: GOLD
choir: GOLD
handbells: GOLD! :D
drama: GOLD
dance: GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!!
wow! fantastic all of you :D wheeee ms kon and everyone must be super happy this year! yay! :DDDDD